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musebyquotes | 1.8. Wonder Years quote
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panthers71.8. "Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose."
- From the television show 'The Wonder Years'
Grandma burnt the toast again this mornin'.
I'm not sure what we'd do if we didn't have smoke alarms. I can't tell her not to cook, though. She just gets more confused when things aren't how they're supposed to be. I know she can't really do what she used to, but she's happy when she tries. She's doesn't really realise she's makin' mistakes or nearly hurtin' herself. It's just Grandma, really. I know a lot of people think she's weird or they feel sorry for me for takin' care of her, but I wouldn't have anyone else without her. I kinda just do it. It's not really a burden most days.
I mean, yeah... it can be, I guess. Some days I just wish I was like all the other people at school with Mom and Dad home, and Grandma not thinkin' the pot plant was a kitten. Like Julie. She's got her Mom and Dad who love her and a kid sister who's probably gonna grow up thinkin' she's great. But some days she doesn't seem to realise how lucky she is. I miss my Mom and Dad, even if I hate them some days for leavin' me alone.
I love Grandma, but she's just ill and does strange things a lot. Sometimes she thinks I'm Grandpa. I just let her think that. I read a lot about Alzheimer's when the doctor first time me that's what Grandma might have. The books and stuff say that they don't remember the recent memories sometimes and get confused when ya' try and change stuff to things they don't know. I don't mind goin' into Grandma's world sometimes if it stops her bein' upset, ya' know? I don't like when she's upset. I feel like I'm failin' her and can't help her like I should be. If I don't take care of her, who will? She looked after me all those years and she's the only person who hasn't left me.
But I ain't a freak. I want to be normal some days, too. I want Grandma to be normal and not stuck in her old world. I'm goin' to really miss her when she goes back into it forever. Worst part is, I know it's gonna happen one day. One day soon, and it really hurts.
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- From the television show 'The Wonder Years'
Grandma burnt the toast again this mornin'.
I'm not sure what we'd do if we didn't have smoke alarms. I can't tell her not to cook, though. She just gets more confused when things aren't how they're supposed to be. I know she can't really do what she used to, but she's happy when she tries. She's doesn't really realise she's makin' mistakes or nearly hurtin' herself. It's just Grandma, really. I know a lot of people think she's weird or they feel sorry for me for takin' care of her, but I wouldn't have anyone else without her. I kinda just do it. It's not really a burden most days.
I mean, yeah... it can be, I guess. Some days I just wish I was like all the other people at school with Mom and Dad home, and Grandma not thinkin' the pot plant was a kitten. Like Julie. She's got her Mom and Dad who love her and a kid sister who's probably gonna grow up thinkin' she's great. But some days she doesn't seem to realise how lucky she is. I miss my Mom and Dad, even if I hate them some days for leavin' me alone.
I love Grandma, but she's just ill and does strange things a lot. Sometimes she thinks I'm Grandpa. I just let her think that. I read a lot about Alzheimer's when the doctor first time me that's what Grandma might have. The books and stuff say that they don't remember the recent memories sometimes and get confused when ya' try and change stuff to things they don't know. I don't mind goin' into Grandma's world sometimes if it stops her bein' upset, ya' know? I don't like when she's upset. I feel like I'm failin' her and can't help her like I should be. If I don't take care of her, who will? She looked after me all those years and she's the only person who hasn't left me.
But I ain't a freak. I want to be normal some days, too. I want Grandma to be normal and not stuck in her old world. I'm goin' to really miss her when she goes back into it forever. Worst part is, I know it's gonna happen one day. One day soon, and it really hurts.
Word Count | 384
