panthers7: (Look down hoodie)
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The house was a pretty quiet place at the moment, the only other occupants being Jason and Taylor in their bedroom, and considering it was pretty much silent and dark in that part of the house, Matt had just assumed they were sleeping and he had been trying to stay quiet because of it. He even took the kettle through into the laundry at the back of the house to boil it so the noise wouldn't disturb them, and now he was back, sitting at the kitchen table with his hand wrapped around a large mug of coffee as he slowly glanced over the handful of brochures spread out in front of him. To one side he had information on the hospital and the nursing courses at UT, given to him by the woman who had offered him a job. She told him to take a few days to think about it, but before leaving the hospital to come home when it looked like Sam wasn't coming out of Tim's room any time soon, he stopped by her office and accepted the offer. At the end of the day, he needed the money, and it was going to be good money. Plus, it would be the first step to him becoming a qualified nurse, a career he had fleetingly considered in the past when it seemed like his art just wasn't going to earn him a living.

Next to those brochures were information sheets on epilepsy that he had been reading to try and get an understanding of it... )


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panthers7: (Moody)
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Matt was buried under the mound of covers in the bed, curled up in a ball on his side with his arm wrapped protectively around his stomach. He really was trying to sleep, but every time he got close, his stomach cramped up again and his brain seemed to want to kick into overdrive. He was trying not to think about Sam out there talking to Riggins. As far as Matt was concerned, no good could come of it. Sam had been too hung up on Riggins, and she wasn't going to want someone like Matt if Riggins was there for the taking. In fact, if he wasn't feeling so crap, Matt was sure he would have gotten into his crappy car by now and just left. Maybe even gone back to Dillon, who knew? No one expected everything to blow up for Jason and Mac's wedding, but it had, and they all seemed to have some pieces to pick up in the wake of it. Matt couldn't believe how stupid Riggins had been getting caught up in crime shit like that. If criminals were Sam's type, Matt was going to be well out of the picture. He couldn't even lie to someone without getting a heavy guilt complex plaguing him.

He didn't know whether it was just because it was so soon after his break up with Julie. He had felt ready to move on, but he definitely didn't feel ready to be hurt again. Being hurt sucked. He had only had two relationships with girls in his life, and both had kicked him in the gut on some level. He thought Sam might be different, but that was when Riggins wasn't in the picture. A shiver crept over his body, the old worn Panthers t-shirt and track pants he used as pyjamas not doing much, and he huddle further under the covers, closing his eyes. He pushed all the thoughts of out his mind and tried to sleep again. He was so tired, he felt like he could sleep for a week.

Sam still felt like a weight had been lifted after her awkward conversation with T... )


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panthers7: (Talk smile)
[Contains spoilers for Friday Night Lights Season 4, especially in relation to Matt's exit]

Leaving Dillon.

It should have been an easy decision to make, but Matt learned long ago no decision he was faced with was ever easy. His life was meant to be hard. Maybe this was the first time since he could remember that it really just wasn't difficult? Leaving high school, finishing his semi-successful run with the Panthers which at least saw him win a State Championship, once it was all over and he gave up his chance of doing art at college to take care of his grandma so she didn't have to go into a home, there seemed to be little to nothing. He ended up delivering pizzas, and he had Julie. Julie was a shining light in his otherwise dreary post-high school life. He had convinced himself he could be satisfied in Dillon because he had to be. There wasn't any other option, if he didn't stay, Grandma went to a home and Matt just couldn't live with that.

And then the news came. His father was dead. Killed in Iraq. Matt's greatest fear, even if he harboured deep-seated confusion and hatred over the situation. But it was over with now, and Matt needed a clean slate. An insurance payout meant his Grandma and his Mom would be fine without him. If he stayed in Dillon any longer, it would kill him. He loved Julie, and a part of him probably always would, but it was over now. She was part of that portion of his life that came with nothing but pain and loss. Strangely enough, it had been Tim Riggins who had come through when he most needed it. Matt found a support in his ex-teammate that he would never have anticipated could have been there. At the end of the day, Matt didn't really know exactly what it was that helped him make the decision to walk away from Dillon. He just knew he had to.

One last favour, though... )
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